Eye wide open

The title of this post is not to be confused with Gotye's tune, 'Eyes wide open'.

This is the first time I am writing a post that is a result of things that have happened in the present time. And I think I need to be careful not to take this road each day/week/month where I basically tell you about my everyday life goings on. I think that would bore the pants off of you, and I would definitely come across as being a full time whinger, as opposed to the part time whinger, which is a title I will gladly accept. Whinging can be a good release though, right?

Today is a school day, and I am not at school. Don't fret! I am not doing a dodgy, nor am I taking the day off because of a severe Mad Sascha episode, just a small one...fatigue, exhaustion, burning out.

Yesterday at work I had a little moment of panic which did prompt me to see the doc later in the day.

I was sitting in a session with students, listening to some stories of people who work for various NT Government departments. The purpose of the talk was to inform students about career paths offered, and to dispel the myth that working for a government does not mean you sit at a desk and work from a computer all day long. It was very informative I thought, even though I had to do a lot of 'shushing' to the students I saw myself near - though they decided to shut the hell up when the sporty people spoke (Typical - this is when I would have started chatting away as a student, loving sport as much as I do).

Anyways...my eye. My left eye. My left eye went weirdo on me. It was wide open. Not both eyes, just one, the left one. Got that? It was like it had some massive caffeine hit, and was suddenly wanting to take in its surroundings. I could still close my eye, which I eventually did because I knew I would look quite strange if anyone saw.

It wasn't painful, and it only lasted maybe a minute...even less. But I did not likey. Some of you may be a bit suspicious, wanting to ask if it was actually open more than the other and seeing as though I just sat there and close my eye without actually getting up and looking in a mirror. This is a good question. The thing is, this happened last week at home where I did look in the mirror and saw it for myself.

It was about a week ago and I was brushing my teeth before bed. My eyes were very tired and red, and as I mentioned in my previous post, I feel as though I am at a point where things are a bit on the low side. Mid-term blues perhaps? So already being tired, my eyes were a bit smaller. Sounds strange, but you get me.

So I am brushing my teeth and all of a sudden, my left eye is wide open. I can feel the air on my eyeball. I look up at the bathroom mirror to see my reflection and whoa! Hang the hell on! My left eye is like, 'Hello!' Hmm yes, this is strange. I opened and closed my eyes, which was easy to do. I felt no pain. I squeezed my eyes closed again to see if it would stop, then opened them again. But no, still the same one eye wide open. I closed them again, and rubbed my eyes. Eventually it went back to normal after about a minute or less. Weird!

Humour note: To try and find the funny side of this, I imagined that if it would only happen to both eyes at the same time, it would be like an instant eye lift without surgery, taking years off my face! No? Yes? Maybe?

I told M and he told me to get him next time. I agreed.

So now, at work this happens! Same feelings of the air on my eyeball and all.

I decided that I should see the GP after speaking to another staff member, an ex-nurse. If anything, I wanted it documented.

So I popped off to see the doc.

I have to mentioned that the day before was the school swimming carnival, and I was given a light duty, in the shade. I was asked if I'd be okay, and I said yes because I really thought it would be alright. I did it last year! But I do think my tolerance to heat has become worse.

After the carnival I was so tired, and this tiredness on top of already shitty sleep, and the watery red eyes I had been experiencing over the past week seemed to have made sense to the doc, in that I was suffering from exhaustion and MS related fatigue. She ordered me to take the remainder of the week off, and rest.

So here I am.