Summer is coming ... ... ... again

I realise I did not post since my last post (obvs) and that means that I did not let you know that there were no changes on my MRI scans. Well now you know!

So summer is coming, again. For most people this means:
- being outside
- parties/festivals
- rapid increase in socialising opportunities
- alfresco dining/drinking
- going to the beach
- super fun times!!!

For me, this means:
- constant checking of weather
- inability to commit to anything that is outside
- chasing the air con
- disappointing people
- feeling isolated
- reminding work of my required reasonable adjustments
- being nervous about explaining my limitations
- expensive electricity bill

Yes it is true, I hate summer (but like small bits of it) and it hates me. However, I am grateful that we don't get much humidity here - now that is the killer. One of my last visits to Brissy I completely broke down in tears. I was, literally, a  HOT MESS. Cheers humidity!!!
~ I questioned my existence ~
I wish I knew more people that understood this. Anyone out there?

The weather also makes any (of the ridiculously not enough) exercise I do, even harder. So I tried a Barre Class "based on elements of Ballet Barre and Pilates". Well I have done ballet and pilates. Loved them both! What could go wrong? This sounds perfect for Sascha! Right?
"Hahahaha", oh she laughed.
"Suited to any fitness level" they said!
Get rooted.
I left the second trial class I tried, in tears. My balance, oh how I did not balance! My dodgy knee, oh how its dodgy-ness shone bright! They offered me pilates classes as part of the month trial instead, but I refused as I wanted to do something I can AFFORD, and long term, pilates is not affordable unless you're rich (who is with me?). It was a red hot failure. What was I thinking...I did tell them everything about my limitations and the MS.
F  A  I  L

So then, I looked into adult ballet classes and that is what I am doing. The barre work is great. Love, love, love it. Lots of memories flooding back. (FYI, I did ballet and other dance styles for 10 years, ages 4 to 14). The centre work however, I am appalling. Hello MS! My balance, my knee...they let me down tremendously...people may say "oh but it will help you improve"...sorry but I am not convinced. The thing is, it's not that my body can learn to balance again, it's damaged and that is the hard (sad) truth. If it helped so much, all MSers would be doing ballet, let's be honest here.

In other news. We might be moving.
It is the life I chose and as exciting as it can be, it is a bit sucky that we do not get to live a little more in our home :( BUT WE WILL BE BACK!
There is also the question of work... I was able to speak with my principal who said he was happy to approve Leave Without Pay so I would not lose my permanency. This was a MASSIVE relief.

Some people may struggle with this idea of moving a lot. I quite like it. Change is good. Without all the moving I may never have fallen into the area of teaching that I am now loving so much. Would I have accumulated the same experience in life, love and work? I doubt it. I am actually internally grateful for such opportunities, for it has shaped me, and contributed greatly to my resilience and acceptance of change. Now how's that for a positive outlook mofos?!

When is this all happening? Well here is probably the shittiest part...at this stage, we do not know as it factors in many things, even more so now that the end of year is upon us. I am regretting telling so many people. I thought it was good to be open and honest, but now I am being constantly asked - so please, no more asking. When I know, you'll know. K?

Frida has been mostly a delight, except for when she ate something that made her very sick and cost us an arm and a leg, then escaped the yard and then got mildly ill again, throwing up bits of foil, no doubt consumed in the feral yard of the grubs next door (who have recently moved out - but still left their yard looking like a dump)...*b r e a t h e* but yes, mostly a delight.

Also! Got myself a new set of wheels! Third car in my life, and I am 38. It's fun and a gross colour that is slowly growing on me.

P.S. Still looking to change my blog platform as this one is poo. Suggestions please.