Too many goodbyes

WOW! My last post was in July...and it is now mid-November with holiday and christmas cheer not far away.

I am currently feeling like utter rubbish. I have a sinus infection. Sinusitis. Head wanting to explode. Red raw nose, Sore upper set of pearly whites. Manky feeling ears. I could get gross, but I think you get the idea. I am into day 5, and I think today is the worst day. Hopefully that means from here, I will improve. I am quite impressed with myself really. I know I haven't taken any sick days for at least the time I have been on contract...that's pretty good!

Mad Sascha has been laying low. Sometimes she is woken when I am sick...and there has been a little weakness in the legs, but no biggie.

I did have to postpone my last Tysabri infusion to this coming Friday. Oh yes, my JC virus blood test came back negative since my last post. Always a relief, especially when it will be up to that 2 year time thing next April.

I remember being told that you shouldn't have an infusion when you're sick. Hence, my postponing. However, yesterday I realise that I may not be 100% by this coming Friday so I frantically called the MS nurse...and she assured me I would be fine. Where I go for my infusion is an infusion centre. Nah der. So a lot of the patients there are immunocompromised. THIS is why they don't want us Tysabri takers coming in and spreading our germy-love. I felt a bit stupid. Here I was thinking...can I have MY infusion? What will happen to ME? Me-h. Idiot.

Now, a few things have happened.

My grandmother passed away.
My step-dad passed away.
I have had a contract since my last post.
I went to New Zealand.

My darling, amazing, beautiful Mama. What a shock. My heart is so sad that she is gone. But she left with no pain and she left a few days after I saw her. About a week after my last post, in fact. I miss her. Sometimes I just want to call her and tell her something and hear her little voice. I wish I could have told her how amazing New Zealand was...a place that she herself loved so much..the thermal baths. The stink of Rotorua. And boy, did that place fucking stink! M took me to see The Sound of Music musical...if I could only just call her to tell her about it. Just every now and then, it's very tough.

But not as tough as what my mum has been feeling...losing her mother, who annoyed her, but she loved dearly and would do, and DID do, anything for. THEN...her soulmate, Chris. My step-dad. Too soon, just way too soon.

Unfortunately Chris passed away the day after M and I arrived in NZ. Despite this happening, New Zealand was amazing. Such beautiful scenery. Breathtaking. Very friendly folk. Great beers. Yummy food. Why hadn't I been earlier? Maybe the earthquake thing? Yeah, actually, that's it. I am not going to lie...earthquakes were always on the back of my mind. I felt uneasy staying in large buildings. We were lucky we didn't feel anything. And yes, I understand that they occur all the time.

Since I began my 5 week contract, I gained another 5 week contract, THEN I landed a 9 week contract. All at the same school...teaching students with disabilities. I just completed their reports last week (thank goodness! I don't think I'd have the mental capacity to write them while my head feels like it does atm). They are wonderful. So funny. Some are challenging, but all magical little souls.

As for work next year...nothing concrete as yet. Lots of maybes. All I keep thinking is...it can't be any worse than the start of this year where I worked a total of 10 days over 10 weeks in term 1. I didn't know anyone, and no one knew how awesome I was! Haha. Now, at least some people know. I have a good solid rapport with 5 schools. All these schools have had a taste of my teaching more than once. Gotta love a callback. A good sign I am liked 😊

Mum and the sis are coming for a Radelaidean christmas. I think they're gonna want a tree. 😐